It seems like every time I get on social media I see a comment talking about Dead Poets Society or Aladdin or Flubber or any of the other amazing films Robin Williams appeared in. I wasn’t a huge fan of Robin Williams but when I heard of his passing, I was instantly heartbroken. Celebrity deaths are always shocking but they never feel real. However, hearing someone has taken their life has always hit close to home for me.
I have dealt with depression on and off for almost half of my life. It is something I deal with everyday and is the hardest thing I will ever deal with. Honestly I haven’t been able to talk about it with a lot of people I know. Most people just don’t understand it. I’ve been called insecure, dramatic, and unappreciative. Then there are the people who think that everyone deals with being unhappy and I should just “deal with it”.
A lot of people seem to be surprised by the fact that Robin Williams committed suicide. I’ve always known that a lot comedians use comedy to help with their depression so I wasn’t completely surprised. But I have heard a lot of questions that sound all too familiar. Didn’t he have a great family? Wasn’t he filthy rich? Didn’t he spend most of his life doing what he loved? Then why was he so unhappy?
When I was younger, I thought my life would be perfect if I could just be rich,do what I loved, have everything I want. But over time I learned that’s it’s just not that easy. For a lot of people, depression is something that is deep inside of you. It can stay hidden for months, even years and then suddenly emerge out of nowhere. For example,I have always had an interest in film and this summer I got the opportunity to work on a web series. During the 6 weeks of filming, I got to learn the ins and outs of being on set, meet awesome people, and finally do something I love. After filming wrapped, I went on FB to find more projects to work on. Suddenly my feelings changed.
"Why am I doing this? No one is going to hire me. No ever hires me. No one wants me. I’m just a waste of space." These negative thoughts go around and around like a carousel until I can’t even remember why I was happy to begin with.
I cannot pretend to know the exact reasons behind Robin Williams’s death. But I know his struggle and fight. I don’t understand how he could be so open about his depression with the world. But I understand by telling your story, you can raise awareness.
Everyone has been talking about how we should remember his work and legacy. While I agree, I also think we should focus on his spirit. We should remember how brightly it burned and how quickly it went out. We should realize that everyone has their bad days and no matter how small things may seem, they can make a big difference on someone’s life.
Depression is something that affects so many people. While every situation is different, I know that every situation is a constant fight. And maybe you don’t know the fight, but you can help win it.
“boys will be bo-“
*punches you in the face*
bOYS WILL BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR ACTIONS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE
I wonder how many stranger’s stories we make it into? You know, maybe someone saw you in passing and told their friends about how pretty the girl in the lavender sweater was. Or maybe they overheard you say a joke and repeated it to their friend, confessing that they heard it from some guy at the store.
I think about this all the time
This was the most important moment in America’s next top model
"You have had a dream for so many years. Let today be the day you make a plan for it. Just think about how much more likely you are to hit your target when you finally aim at it."
"If a female student got drunk and had her car stolen the university would call the police. If she got drunk and had her computer stolen, they would call the police. If she got drunk and had her phone stolen, they would call the police. The fact that she was drunk would not even be factored in when assessing if a crime had been committed. But if she gets drunk and has her body invaded and her humanity stolen, school administrations are perplexed about what to do."